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Thursday, December 16, 2010/10:29 AM

The best part now is when I tried calling he sounds so fresh awake. Hmm. I hang up. Maybe it's my fault. I shouldn't call. Cause it's just gonna hurt more. Boyy, I won't call you anymore. Enough of the hurts you brought me to :) my fcuking birthday is fcuking coming andd I think I'm not gonna get what I fcuking wished for, that is to be happily attached to someone. Friends, I'm sorry for everything . But please. I'm not throwing u guys or even moving away. I was just too carried away with work n etc. My family is having a major problem, boyy, u weren't there. Where were you when I needed u the most ? You are nowhere to be found. Dear blog, you're the only person left for me to share. I need someone badly. To rely on. To lend on. Called Tasha but she didn't pick up. I don't have mas's new cell no. So I can't get through her. I need someone like NOW. You are a totally changed person. I swear. I can't believe things are happening this fast. This is hell. Making decisions so fast , this is the results. I'm so not in the mood. I just hope friends could come back n cheer me up but I know it's neve gonna happen.

My birthday is coming. I'm turining 19. But I'm not looking forward to it. *1st ; I wished I could be that Jura bitch which is so pretty n sexy. At the same time I wish I could be that 'old friend' of urs wearing tudung with good reputations to your family. Who the fcuk u want me to be?! Gosh! I'm left in the middle. Not knowing who to be. It feels sucks when u have to be someone just to be loved . Omg. Why is this happening?! I need some space! FML FML!

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