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Sunday, October 24, 2010/11:14 PM

Goshh! im broke! Like totally broke! Wth! 2 more freaking weeks before my payday. God, please be by me andd make 5thNov come faster=( I cant wait to grab the things i crave for ♥ Teehee! Things has went perfectly for me this few days. Except for the $ part -__- Urghh! GREAT! What am i gonna do on my offdays? All my plans are destroyed due to no cash . Mama never stops nagging at me. No money also nag. Got money also nag ( she says im never at home if i have cash ) tsk! This is a good lesson for me. So START SAVING idaa

Other then that, im feeling sad lately... Due to some reasons. About someone. Hmm~ I dont feel good. I feel INSECURE. I wish i could tell you. But nahh, its not a good idea. I dont wanna fight or have any misunderstanding between us. Itll just end up hurting us. So i guess ill just keep it in my heart and share it only in this diary of mine. Why am i feeling this way? Hate this! Should i spare some thoughts for her andd get hurt? Or should i just go with the flow? Hmm~ it seems that both choices might lead to loosing my love.

To her ♥ ; i apologise if you think by me joining this company its a disaster for you. I swear in the name of god i never had any bad intentions. Im just finding some cash for my family n myself. If i know it earlier, i wouldnt have gone through your line. Im sorry. I know im pointless if i keeps on apologising. Cause in the end things happened. Andd ive fallen deeply for him. You've gotta respect that. I know im the one to be blamed. Not him andd not yourself. But come to think about it, if only you told me frankly when we first know each other, things wouldnt be at this state. I care so much about you because it is sincerely from the bottom of my heart. Please, im not born in this world to hurt people. Everything happens for a reason. Im sorry.

To ♥ ; its not that i dont wanna check your fb / phone. Its just that i wanna get hurt NOMORE. I just hope you understands me. Im trying to be your perfect girlfriend just like you are for me ♥ although i know i might be one pain in the ass most of the time but i really want you to know that i l y s m.

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